Late night talk

X: i can't believe you said that! After all the shit thing he put you through? How could you do that to yourself?!
Me: i don't know what to say. I think, I will always love him. No matter what but part of me are actually fed up.
X: You still can't forgive him, then why you said that?!
Me: He is still thinking he was right, while saying apology. I wonder what would happen to him, I mean, life will knock him down, God will teach him a lesson he would never forget, I just don't know what and how. I just think he would change, and say sorry for what his done, sincerely. Yeah, I spend the last 3.5 years with this guy. I know there is a hope that he might sorry.
X: Girl, he won't do that. You know, he is only 5 cm to become megalomania. He won't, trust me.
Me: That actually... Well, I can't see any difference after all this 1.5 years. He said sorry but, he thinks he is doing everything just right. But if it's right, then why feel guilty? It's basic common sense to me. If you think you are right but feels wrong, there is something not right.
X: Well, he wanted to save himself by breaking you apart. So yes, he is guilty.
Me: Wow, yeah. I guess. 
X: Okay, girl, promise me that NO, you are not gonna say that again. Not to me, not to him, or anyone else.
Me: It's such a long day... I might be just second guessing everything.
X: Sleep well. It's such a long day. Don't push yourself too hard.