Muted grief

I remember losing one by one, people who I loved. 

I remember crying until I  fall asleep and hoping it's just a dream

People die, people left, people gone.

And all those memories remain to make you great and bitter

Making you strong enough to carry on

Moving forward with the grief that life gave you

As you grow old, you've seen people carry that weight

And when you see the mirror, you saw that weight on your shoulder

When bad things happen you still cry but you moved on

When life knocked you down, you get up and realized it's just life

Your grief becomes muted

You didn't talk about it, too much

Because others had the same grief

And you don't have to tell the world about your broken heart

As they only said, "moved on"

But in your grief you realized there's wound that never heal

There's heart that can not be repaired

There's relationship that can not be change

And that's okay

It's life, and you've just got to live with it.